Knowing Your Limits

Hi Everyone,
Yes, I am back among the living and the post Christmas fizzle.  Before the holidays happens to be probably the worst time of year for my work.  During this time, for some insane reason, I decided to also hire painters to pain the entire interior of my house plus try to decorate for Christmas for my children and of course pack for traveling to see the relatives for the holidays and lets not forget Christmas shop for the most unique gifts for all of my relatives and friends.  Needless to say I knew I was burning the candle at both ends but I still charged ahead and all the stress caught up with me and  I was diagnosed with pneumonia 5 days before I was scheduled to take the whole family on our yearly Christmas travels to see every relative we have in the 4 neighboring states.  Clearly I wasn't listening to my body so it found a way to remind me to know my limits.  Yes, I believe in a higher power and I think God too was trying to remind me I can not do it all. My body and God finally got through to me even if I didn't like it.  Finally when the dishwasher broke that I had just bought 2 weeks before and I Christmas tree angle broke, as well as the top of the tree, because the cat we were watching for a friend decided 4am was a perfect time to climb the tree and attack the angle -  I realized it was time to stop taking life too seriously.  I just took a deep breath and let everything just fall out the best it could. As a result, not every room in the house got painted - January is a lovely month to resume that project,  I did not get fired but was late on a few deadlines, the kids got their Christmas with a angle-less tree but they made a star out of glitter and glue instead, Mr. Whiskers spent the remainder of his visit in the garage,  all the relatives got gift cards - they can buy themselves something unique and whimsical if they choose, we left 4 days later then planned for our trip and most importantly - I just took a nap.  Life went on and I am okay with that.  I realized the message,  I needed to be reminded of my limits.

While resting a lot in bed before my travels, I did catch up on a little GH. I mostly watched JaSam and Scrub scenes and just ignored the rest.  I was working on trying to avoid things that elevated my irritation level so Lante, Minnie Mouse Maxie and boring Liz is trying to trap herself another man crap was out. (BTW, that made my viewing much more pleasant I must confess.)

   Sam is also learning her limits.  She can not hold everything inside, she is not super woman.  She, too, is human.  I was glad to see Sam finally told someone about the rape.  Michael was a prefect choice.  Jason overhearing them talking too was perfect.  Jason really needs to find a way to push aside all that angry.  Yes, it is neurological but he needs to get help so he can be there for Sam.  He is the person she needs the most.  He needs to listen to Robin and seek help.  Killing Franco will not erase what he has done to Sam.  Revenge will not fix this.  But Jason listening to Sam and not exploding every 2 seconds will help them get past this.  I have not read a spoiler in about a month but I have a feeling this is just the tip of the iceburg when it come to Jason's rage.  I am not thrilled about that.  He needs to get help  and know his limits.
I did love that they spent Christmas together, though.  They seemed happy for a brief second.  I remember seeing some media shots floating around of them sitting on the coach talking.  I wish they would not have cut those scenes.  But of course I would have been happy if they entire episode was just about JaSam and Scrubs. We have had a wonderful year for those two couples, lets not forget.  We have been given a great gift.  Let's be grateful.

This year has been a long but beautiful year for JaSam fans.  We need to celebrate.  While there have been some ups and downs, their love has remained stronger then ever.  Next year is just beginning to start, I am sure it will bring great drama with it for our couple and in the end they will come out stronger then ever.  I have not read one single spoiler or latest rumors on 2012.  I know there is a chance GH might get canceled or that the new HW and EP might change it so drastically we don't recognize it. But instead of giving into the haters and rumors, I am going to remain hopefully for JaSam and GH to be a strong lasting tradition for years to come. 

While  I drove through Santa Fe on my travels, I could not help to think about Garin Wolf's contributions over the last year.  (If you are wondering why the connection - he lives there and flies to LA 1/2 the week for the show).  While some of his storylines seemed to not captivate every fan,  I truly adored what he did for JaSam this year.  He showed everyone JaSam belong together.  He brought back the amazing history of GH in each scene and reminded us it wasn't all about the mob.  It wasn't all about Sonny and there were other characters on the show.  He reminded us why we have been watching this show for all of these years and he brought back the history Grandmother would have been proud of.   I wish he could know how grateful we are as fans for his work in 2011.  I know he'll never read this, but I want to say, THANK YOU GARIN WOLF FOR WHAT YOU DID!!!!!.  I will truly miss his incredible talent as HW of GH.  Thank you!

Happy New Year everyone!.  May this new year bring good health and happiness to all of you.  May sadness and sorrow be something of the past and only good fortune be in your future.

Call to Action

Over the past week there have been a lot of changes in ABC and GH.  There are those that are concerned this shake up is the death of GH.  Others worry this new shake up means the entire canvass of GH will change.  I don't have a crystal ball, nor are my other methods to see into the future are a little rusty but what I do know is it is time to call to action.  General Hospital is an iconic piece of all daytime history, now is not the time to quit on the show.  We, as fans, have helped establish GH as an iconic piece of the daytime line up.  Why quit now?  Why let fears and widely inaccurate and mostly insane rumors suck you in?  We are better then this! We are fans of the most amazing couple in TV.  We rallied when times seemed bleak and kept the faith.  We fought so hard to get them back together, now they are married and Sam is expecting a baby.  This is proof someone is listening to us.  This is proof our fanbase matters to TPTB.  So don't freak out now.  I know this is harder to do then just say.  But now it is time to rally once again and show this new renege  at GH that we matter and we are excited about what the future will hold.  We need to support JaSam and make sure we show them all the love we can. 

So this is our formal call to action as fans - it is our duty as fans! Lets get out there and make sure we are heard! 
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Fighting Off Demons

Today's line up was all about couples for GH.  There were no other conversations that took place today.  I liked the setup.  It was a good balance which is something we have been lacking on GH lately.   Today, for a change we got to focus on relationships and we had a good mix of some of the good story lines.  Today all fans of GH were able to find some common ground in this episode.  Today I didn't FF a single scene.  That is the first time I have been honestly able to say that for a while.  While each couple spent time together, each couple tried to fight off their demons.

Lulu and Dante are not my favorite couples but today, thanks to the balance, I actually watched their scenes and chuckled at some of them. I used to like Lulu before Dante and sometimes when she is not whining or sniveling, I like her again.  Today she was actually kind of funny with Dante when she told him she would spend all her time tailing him because she is unemployed now, there was some humor there.  But just past the humor was Lulu's fears and demons below the surface.  Lulu's convinced she can never find true happiness because love leaves - it doesn't last in her experience.  She's making this a self fulfilling proficiency that she is chasing after at the bottom of a bottle.

Another couple I am not crazy into is Sonny and Kate but today I loved their scenes.  I wasn't sure I was crazy about Kate to start with.  I liked the old Kate and didn't really see the point of bringing back another Kate to me seemed rather stale to me at first.  But this Kate is actually growing on me.  She is sassy and I think it is hilarious.  She is funny and she brings out the humorous side of Sonny.  Generally Sonny is not my favorite character, but when he is with Kate they seem to have a spark.  Kate is trying to help Sonny confront his demons but for him "It's like running through Hell! Why would I want anyone with me."   Sonny has been battling these demons for a very long time, not sure going into that house will solve all of it.

Today was great for another reason we got Scrubs and JaSam all on the same day.  Scrubs are battling a lot of demons lately but they are facing it together.  I love this couple.  I am so terribly sad that Kimberly McCullough is leaving GH.  I have read the upcoming Scrubs storyline is that Robin will die which I find just devastating. Robin has been on GH for almost as many years as I have been watching to think of GH without Robin just isn't right to me.  Why can't Robin go off to cure people of diseases in Africa again or something but not kill her off.  Today the Scrubs scenes were so tender but the fact Robin's arm is still bothering her and she was so tired she could not stick around for dinner makes you realize there is something going on with her health and this story is coming up quicker then any of us want it to.  Well I am going to watch and cherish all the scrub scenes we have left and just enjoy the ride, that is all any of us can do.

Jason and Sam have a lot of battles of demons going on right now.  Jason completely lost it at the Q's but instead of taking off on his bike at least he went home to the PH.  He sat in their bedroom almost waiting for Sam to find him.  Jason is so lost, almost like a child because a child can't always be rational when they are upset.  Right now Jason is like that child who can't be calm.  Jason has so much rage and anger about what happened to Sam.  He failed to protect Michael and he was sent to prison and raped, Michael is still haunted by Carter and even though Jason killed him the pain is still there.  Jason raged about how he should have killed Franco and none of this would have happened but that is so unlike Jason.  Jason always has said you can't change the past but all of a sudden he is spending a great deal of time second guessing and trying to change the past.  The reality is Jason didn't kill Franco but he can't change that now.  The pain Franco has unleashed on Sam and Michael to get to Jason have put Jason in the most vulnerable of positions of his life. Sam has so much to deal with, but her primary focus today was to try to help Jason. She was so worried about Jason and his health.  She has seen Jason angry but this anger is so different then she has ever seen.  What happened to Sam is cindged into their minds like a brand is on the skin they can't even think about anything else for 5 seconds.  Jason's focusing on anger but it was good he stopped raging and screaming at Sam and realized he needs to be there for her too right now.  He is a victim because he had to watch powerless, but it is important that he puts down his anger and is there for Sam.. Sam is by far the stronger of the two that is nothing new.  She is strong but she needs him right now and he needs to do what he can to help her.  The struggle is also how to help her.  Today I think just having that conversation helped her a little. It was so touching when Jason walked in the bedroom and sat on the edge of the bed next to Sam and melted our hearts with what he said next.  
Jason to Sam: "I would give anything to take the pain away from you."
Sam to Jason: "I wish you could."
Jason to Sam: "I just got to say I'm sorry..I'm sorry I should have been there to protect you." Sam reached over to hold his hand. That was just so heart breaking to watch but amazing to see their love still fighting there.  He was in so much pain because he feel he failed her but instead of screaming about how she should blame him, this time he got it right.  He said it without anger and spoke from the heart. That is what she needed.

Keep watching.  I know it is sad with two major character leaving GH right after each other but keep watching! Keep calling, writing and tweet.  Keep fighting! Please join me to keep fighting for GH.

Not My Intension

Most of you have probably heard the saying, "the road to hell is paved with good intentions". The original person to say this quote is often a debate but you can't argue, no matter who said it first, the validity of the statement.  Most people don't set up to screw up their lives, their kids or the lives of the person they care the most about.  That is also true about the residents of Port Charles.

Luke never set out to screw up his life or his kids lives or the life of the two women he has loved with his whole heart.  Luke really never planned on causing the detrimental pain with unending repercussions.  But his actions did cause this severe pain that has caused even himself to bitter beyond hope.  At least that is what he wants everyone to believe, is that he is beyond hope but within Aiden is his redemption. As for the rest of the Spencers I am still twitching from yesterday's episode, so I have decided to not discuss their clan in much detail today.    

Instead I am going to focus on the reason I watch, Jason and Sam.  Today was a hard day for our super couple.  I have a feeling they are going to have a few more of these hard days before they can get past what has happened. Jason really has the best of intentions to try to help Sam but he is really failing at the execution of helping her miserably.  Jason wants to help Sam by having her talk about it and trying to talk about how to deal with it.  But Sam isn't there yet.  Jason is trying to push Sam to a point she is not at yet.  Sam is still teetering back and forth between denial and anger and trying to ignore it ever happened.   She's isn't to the point where talking about it is something she wants to do.   Sam is desperate to cling to the way things were before.  She wants Spinelli to stay for so many reasons.  While Jason is very ready to start a new life with Sam. Sam's readiness has been a bit derailed by Franco.  Don't doubt what I am saying here though. Sam loves Jason more then anything and she is committed to him and their life together and she is happy they are married.   However, she wants Spinelli to stay because he can give her something Jason can not right now.  Spinelli has no idea what has happened to Sam and so when she talks to him she doesn't see pain in his face or pitty for her.  She can pretend that nothing has happened to her with Spinelli around.  She can avoid dealing with the reality of the situation or at the very least have a small distraction from it.  

Jason is so lost right now.  He's rage and anger is all over the place.  He is more toward the anger stage of the healing process.  Jason didn't spend much time in the denial stage like Sam seems to be hanging out in. Jason is trying to help Sam.  He had no intention today to make her angry or upset or do anything other then just be there for her.  But Jason is also a victim in this and he needs to recognize that.  Right now he is focusing on making Franco pay, finding Franco, figuring out the game.   He is also so worried about Sam and her pain that he is trying to tell her how she needs to deal with this, indirectly.  This is not helping the situation.  He had every intention to try to help Sam today but his intentions only made Sam more frustrated and made her pull away even more. 

Sam said it clearly today and I think Jason finally got it at the end of their conversation.  She wants to push her pain aside, avoid dealing with what has happened to her just to help Jason.  She hates looking into Jason's eyes and seeing the pain. He doesn't look at her the same and that is killing her.  She wants to fix this for him but she needs to fix herself first.  But "fixing" doesn't happen overnight.  Eventually she'll see "fixing" herself doesn't mean she has to push Jason away.  She will also learn that she can't fix this but instead just accept it.

As heart breaking as the Jason and Sam scenes were today, there is no reason to doubt their love for one another and that they can't come through this even stronger.  Jason and Sam still love one another more then anything. Right now they are scared and fearful Franco has destroyed their dreams but he has not.  Their love is stronger then anything.  Something important to note, Sam didn't walk out the door she went upstairs.  That was huge.  She is not walking out on Jason or their marriage, she just needs a little time to be alone and try to get herself in check so she can be strong again for their relationship.  Don't be discouraged by today's show.  If anything be excited about what is coming up.  While things might get more tense between these two, you can't doubt their love for one another.  You also need to realize what Jason said. When Sam said , "what has changed" and his response was "everything".  For Jason EVERYTHING has changed when he married Sam.  He is not about to go looking around Lizzy Webber's door to talk to feel needed.  Sam is it for him.  There is no one else Jason will ever try to even talk to.  Sam is IT for Jason. Remember that, SB said it and so did KeMo.  While these two will have so much anger and might deal with it by attacking the Q's Thanksgiving table, they will work past this.  They are everything for each other and very soon they are going to start really showing this, I have faith. 

All I Want Is You

Sometimes in the aftermath of the horrific event, the only thing you want is to return to normal.  But that is the hardest part of it all, "normal" no longer exists.  You can't go back to what normal was before the horrific event because that event has changed you and everything else.  You long for something that is unattainable and yet your mind just can't make sense of all it.  Time can move very slowly as this new reality resonates through every second.  Every breath is almost physically painful, you could tell this is how Sam and Jason are feeling as a new day swept across the canvass in Hawaii.

Sam and Jason clearly spent the night out under the stars, though we know it wasn't romantic or even the slightest bit peaceful for them.  We know they both just laid there in each others arms in absolute shock and horror, trying desperately to wrap their minds around what has happened.  Their perfect magical cottage that has always been their own special place, now Sam can not even set foot into the place.  It is so devastating how Franco was able to destroy their safe haven.  Not even creeper then creepy Manny was ever that successful but Franco was.

The only thing Sam wanted from the cottage now was the necklace Jason made her.  To her that was all she needed because to her it reminded her of their happiness.  Everything else has now been tarnished by the evil acts of Franco.  Yet, Sam is holding up relatively well all things considered.  Sam has clearly found her strength in the love she shares with Jason.  She is horrified beyond complete repair but she is still fighting.  She didn't want to be sent alone on a plane back to PC.  She wanted to go with Jason to hunt Franco down.  For the first time with Franco, Sam isn't just going along with Jason to support him.  This time she wants revenge.  She wants him to pay.  True to Sam's character, she is not some shy little violet who is going to break down and let Franco win.  Not Sam!

Jason feels so responsible for what has happened to Sam.  It is evident that even with the start of the new day, Jason still feels completely powerless.  It was so clear when Jason said, "This happened because I didn't finish it." He let Franco live before and because of that he let Franco run free and he was able to hurt someone again except this time Franco went too far.  This time it wasn't Michael who was raped, but Sam.  This time Jason feels so responsible he can't shake it.  Jason just wants to do anything he can to help Sam. But in the midst of all of this angst and tragedy their shining love is still so apparently and tangible.  I felt myself tear up when, Jason vowed to Sam he would not take his eyes off Sam. He meant every word of it.   Jason said it so clear and simple, "I just want to erase it, you know. I just want to give you back the smile you had everyday on our honeymoon.  I don't want Franco to take that away from you." My heart just broken into a thousand pieces when Jason told Sam this.  He wants so badly to just do whatever he can do to help and fix this.  But sadly there is no way to fix this.  There is no way to just erase what has happened.  There is no breakthrough surgery that will mend Sam this time.  There is no miracle surgeon or special antidote that will instantly heal her.  This time it is different for them.  This time they will have to dig deeper then ever before and rely on their love like they have never relied on it before to bring them through this horrible storm.  This time there are going to be some Grand Canyon sized obstacles to overcome, but they will make it.  They will remind everyone (even the haters) why they are the super couple that they are.  They will show Franco he didn't ruin anything, the horror he unleashed on them will only make them stronger.   There will be a silver lining to this horrible tragedy.

Today was also the first time Sam saw with her own eyes, Hulk Jason.  His eye thing seemed there when he looked at the TV and heard Franco's voice but this time Jason didn't just tense up.  This time he took action by leaping at the TV on the wall and ripping it off.  Sam took a step back when Jason ignited in anger for a second.  She saw for those brief moments Jason lose it and did her best to try to calm him.  To remind him, he is not an animal and he should not lose it because that is what Franco wanted. Franco wants Jason to completely lose his mind. But Sam is the reason Jason will not go completely off the edge.  Sam is stronger then most and she can handle every side of Jason, even the sides that would scare most everyone else.  I know this is not the end of Jason's outbursts and explosions.  But through them all, Sam's love for him is what will pull him through.  Jason is going to have the hardest time with coming to terms with what has happened and finally moving past it.  I have a feeling Jason will seem as distant as the moon, wrapped up in his anger and need to do something to fix this.  He will be wrapped up in revenge for while trying to make Franco pay.  But he won't lose it completely, even though it might seem like he will.  Their amazing, complete and pure love will bring him back from the brink of destruction.  Love will always win out.

After watching today's show, I think if anyone ever actually kills Franco it is going to be Sam. Jason lets Franco push his buttons and plays the game.  Sam has never been very inclined to play his games.  We know, based on a medianet pic, that Jason shoots Franco.  But we also know he won't be dead.  Based on GW interviews and hints, we know Franco will be returning sometime next year. If Franco is ever to die at the hands of someone else, I think eventually in the future it will be Sam who blows Franco's head off and I think she is completely justified to do so.  

Remember to support GH and their amazing cast.  Call the comment lines, tweet, FB, email - do it all at least once today !

Broken

I am almost at a loss for words today about Jason and Sam's scenes today.  I have had some times to reflect back on those scenes and try to absorb all of their meaning.  While Jason and Sam's scenes today were not the longest when it comes to air time vs the other characters on today, they did by far have the most impact.  It was tough to watch those scenes but at the same time those heart breaking scenes did make for good drama for GH.  GH has been lacking in some good old fashion drama and honestly recently the story lines have been dragging but today was one of the reasons we watch.  There was drama but there was also love. Another thing you can not dispute about today's episode of GH, Kelly Monaco and Steve Burton absolutely had Emmy worthy performances.  After watching today's show I think everyone will agree, Kelly's portrayal was the most moving thing they have watched in a very long time.  She is an incredible actress who needs to be recognized for her talent. 

It was gut wrenching watching Jason begin to explain to Sam what had happened to her.  "What did Franco do to me?"  Sam asked Jason with her hands shaking and absolute horror in her eyes.  She tried to cling to the hope that maybe this was just all a trick.  Jason tried to be as patient as he could be he was in so much pain having to tell Sam what happened to her.  Sam was suffering from a bit of denial today but what woman would not if this is what they were being told.  "Maybe it didn't really happen." Sam said with the saddest expression on her face.  She clung to the hope that maybe something wasn't real that maybe just maybe this wasn't their new reality.  No woman ever wants to have to live through what Sam has just had to realize.  She was raped  (or at least that is what we think has happened to her) by a psychotic serial killer on her honeymoon.   When her guard was down and she has been the most happy in her life, Franco came in and destroyed that.  She had to hear that Franco has been watching them this whole time.  Franco has been there for the last month of their entire honeymoon watching every time they made love, every time they laughed and were just so happy to be able to shut out the whole world, he was watching.  They were never truly alone.  That in its self is reason enough to feel violated to the point to break down in the shower.  

Jason is completely destroyed by this. Sam is taking it better then Jason but that doesn't come as a shock.  He has done everything he could to protect her and vowed he would always protect her but now he knows he failed.  He didn't protect her from Franco or from harm.  It came when they least suspected it, when they were so happy.  Their paradise has just become a nightmare.  Jason felt completely powerless today.  It was flashbacks of how he felt when her baby died.  He could not fix things then and he can't fix them now.  He doesn't know what to do.  He begged Sam to go to the hospital because he felt so powerless. "They can take better care of you then I can."  But Sam didn't want to go to the hospital to be touched by strangers, she just wanted Jason to help her to the shower and help her.  It is normal or natural for most rape victims to not want to go the hospital or to call the police right away, they just want to scrub themselves clean.  They want to try to get the feeling off  their skin.  It was natural for Sam to want to do this.  While this scene was hard to watch, what was  so touching is she wanted Jason to help her to the shower and to just be there.  Jason asked if there was anything he could do for her, Sam looked up at him and said, "Just knowing you are here. Look everything is going to be okay." Sam wanted to reassure Jason which is so true to Sam's character.  She never wants Jason to ever blame himself for anything that has happened to her because someone has targeted her to get to him.  She also wanted him to know she isn't afraid of him.  She didn't cower from his touch, she didn't cringe or pull away even though she just learned she was raped.  She wanted Jason there because she loves him more then anything and he is the only thing she needs.  She tried to help him see that even now, she doesn't hold him accountable for Franco or his actions.  She wanted him to know this is not his fault, though Jason feels this is all his fault. 

The most painful scene to follow was the shower scene.  I don't know if there was a dry eye out there among fans as we watched.  Jason walking Sam to the shower and her trying to be extremely brave but asking for a minute alone.  That is when the real reality washed over Sam.  Sam began to scrub her skin so hard to try to get that feeling off her, trying to feel clean.  She began to breakdown and it was absolutely heart breaking to watch Sam let down her brave wall she had put up for Jason and just breakdown completely.  That is when it became very real to the both of them.  Jason sat outside in the bedroom on the floor just horrified of what Franco had  done to Sam.  His worst fears have finally happened.  Franco was very successful at not only getting to Jason but hurting him more then he could have ever done if he had just targeted Jason alone.  Franco went after the one person Jason cares more about then anyone.  Jason listened as Sam began to break down in the shower.  He sat there for what seemed like forever but it was only seconds listening to her cry. I think the reason he waited the seconds he did was because she had asked him to give her a few minutes alone.  He didn't want to do anything that would make her feel even more violated. But finally he could not stay away any longer.  He had to go help her.  He could not bare to listen to her breakdown without being there.  He wanted her to know she isn't alone and doesn't always have be brave to spare his feelings.  Sam didn't push him away, instead she just fell into his arms.  She fell into the one place she felt safe, with Jason. 

Jason and Sam sat out under the stars.  The last place they will be tonight will be in the bed where the horrible act was committed so it seemed natural to me they would go outside to look at the stars.  The stars have always been such an important symbol for this couple.  When Sam's baby died the stars were the only things that made her feel safe and feel closer to her daughter.  For Sam the stars have always guided her through life, so it was natural Jason just wanted Sam to feel as safe as she could by watching the stars. Jason didn't  feel like he could keep Sam safe but he did his best to try to think of anything that would help her feel a little more at peace but sitting under the stars.  Watching them sitting there it was clear, Jason feels like he has completely failed Sam.  I think Sam felt Jason felt he failed her too.  She tried to help him feel less helpless and assured him, "I feel safe with you."  Again so true to Sam's character, she has been a horrific ordeal but she'll do anything to make sure Jason doesn't feel responsible. 

Everything about today's episode was heart breaking and devastating to watch.  But like I said before, it made for good drama and good TV and I hope ratings increased because of it. I also have a feeling that this most recent dose of reality will actually make our couple stronger in the long run.   I think at first there will be a lot of Jason blaming himself and turning into Hulk Jason in his quest to make Franco pay. While Jason is out trying to get revenge, I think Jason will fail to be there for Sam.  I think it will cause some strain on the relationship at first but I think their love will win out.  I think they will become even closer and stronger after this horrible storm and will come out the other side with a family and happier then ever.  Keep the faith. 


So there are a lot of theories flying out around there.  I don't have too many of mine own i just have some questions so I figure lets be objective and look at this like PI Sam would:

The facts that we know about what happened to Sam:
She drank the beer that was drugged
she went to the bathroom to get a shower and passed out
Franco carried her to the bed, took off his shirt and covered the camera.
Maybe Franco didn't actually commit the physical act of rape, maybe he is just toying with them.  Even if that is the case, they both feel so incredibly violated I am not sure it would make much of a difference because they both already believe it happened.  Of course where this is important is if the writers decide to do a Who's The Daddy (WTD) storyline when Sam finds out she is pregnant.  We all know Sam is pregnant already.  The fact they have been on their honeymoon for over a month would be a big clue that she is already pregnant.  I predict she got pregnant on their wedding night or the night after at the cabin.  Medical fact -  ultra sounds can pinpoint a pregnancy date of conception within a 3 to 4 day period.  I hope if they do decide to do a WTD storyline it is extremely brief and as soon as her first ultra sound they realize she is much farther along then first thought. 

Just a theory but I guess we will just have to tune in to find out!  Call the comment lines GUSH about JaSam.

Making it Count

Today marks a very important date for JaSam fans.  Absolutely most every fan knows what today is and what it means to our super couple.  No one will ever forget what this day means for Jason and Sam.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x08n6zWfTQU

As some of you who have read my blog know is that I too have an extremely personal story that is another reason I can relate to the loss of Baby Lila's death.  So as a person who has experienced this real loss, I can confess you never forget, the pain never goes away but if you are lucky your life can move forward slowly.  Sometimes, if you are fortunate enough to move forward, you realize you need to make everyday count.

Jason and Sam suffered the loss of her child and that was such a profound moment in their relationship.  Jason and Sam did get lucky, though, they got to move forward.  They fell in love and their lives have never been the same since.  They have never stopped loving one another since that day.  There has been pain and sometimes very horrible battles to over come, at times it looked like all hope was lost but it wasn't.  Their love has won out.  Every time it has won.  They have overcome it all: deadly viruses, crazy Dr Thomas and AJ, Carly, memory loss, several brain surgeries, Manny, numerous times being shot, the latest mob threats, Sonny, Elizabeth and her incredible fertility,  Jerry Jax, Theo Hoffman, hearing loss, car accidents and all the other crazy things that have happened to them.   They have triumphant and they will overcome this latest tragedy because that is what makes their love story a classic.

In 2004 we had to watch Jason's terrified expression when he told Sam her baby died.  Then today his face looked so similar to that day.  Jason had to tell Sam he was not the one in the shower with her or in the bed, it was Franco.  He had to tell his wife she was raped because the psychopath that has fixated on Jason finally figured out the most effective way to get to him.  Sure he has targeted Sam before but this time Franco knew how to bring Jason completely to his knees.  There is no one else in this world Jason cares more about then Sam.  Jason would die for Sam and would do anything for her.  Of course, Franco would target her.  This makes Jason feels even more responsible for the fact his wife was raped by Franco.  Jason's pain was so clearly spelled out on his face.  When he finally told Sam she was so clearly horrified it was heart breaking to watch.

For the past 7 years JaSam fans have watched this amazing couple take on everything that came their way.  We have been there for all of the joy and all of the pain, as faithful fans.  There are no two characters that can captivate us like these two can and that is partly because of the two incredibly talented people who play these characters.  Steve Burton and Kelly Monaco really do deserve great recognition for incredible talent and ability to keep us so in love with this couple.  So let's make today count.   Write,call, tweet, FB do it all at least 7 times today to make sure ABC knows fans count! Let your voice be heard.   In addition to remembering why we tune in everyday, remember to make everyday of your own life count.  No matter if you are religious or not, one thing is very true -death will catch up to all of us.  So spend your time here on Earth the best way you know how.  Try to make this world a little kinder.
 

Standing By

I have been absent for a while. My schedule has been a bit insane but honestly,  I also have been struggling with what to write recently about GH.  Negativity is like a infections virus and I don't want to play any part in it when it comes to GH. So I am going to look at the brighter side of things that we have seen recently.  Please join me too.  I have to confess I didn't come around to this positive way of thinking all on my own.  A very faithful reader reminded me today, sometimes you need to just look at the bright side of things. If all we do is point out the bad in GH it will blind us to all of the good.

Well the November sweeps are upon us and maybe it is just the spooky season or something but there is definitely a lot of mystery building on GH as of recently.  Lets take a look at Dr. Steve Webber.  Overall,  that character has been as transparent as glass so far and as squeaky clean as a mirror in a refection pool.  That is until recently.  I like the Dr Jeckle /Mr. Hyde thing they are doing with him.  That character was as boring as toast for a while but now they are finally giving Scott Reeves something to work with and I am loving it.  Scott Reeves is probably one of the most accomplished and talented actors in Daytime and I am so excited we are finally getting to see his talent come alive on our screens.  I think there is a lot of mystery behind Steven and Scott will bring it out.  I am so excited they are finally realizing Scott's talent and not just focusing on the 'chosen few' male characters.

As for that mystery clown that has been following everyone at GH around for the last couple of days, we all know it isn't Lisa because that would take out the mystery of what actually happened to her.  I don't think we'll know what really happened to Lisa for many months to come.  I like the suspense honestly.  Did someone kill her? Did Johnny get to her in time?  Did Anthony circumvent Johnny's rescue attempt and dispose of Lisa? I personally hope Johnny got to her in time and saved her.  I know Lisa is crazy and dangerous and didn't deserve Johnny's rescue but all the same, I love how Lisa embraced her crazy.  She made the halls of GH a little more interesting.  So if the mystery clown isn't Lisa who is it?  It is the doctor Steve has been calling about the job.  It makes perfect sense.

Speaking of mystery, something else we have been getting is the build up for the mystery of Franco's plan for JaSam.  While we haven't seen much of our super couple as of late, we do know by the teaser promo that they will in fact be on soon and their mystery will start to unfold.  We don't know exactly what will happen, I am sure Kelly Monaco and Steve Burton will be emmy worthy performances.  We must tune it for that.

Some of you may have read ratings have been down with GH.  This is very discouraging for all of us I am sure.  We have tweeted faithfully and wrote letters, watched as much as possible but we feel like no matter what we do it doesn't make a difference.  Well I am here to say, don't stop, keep trying.  Keep fighting because GH is worth fighting for. The show deserves it's fans to fight for it because it has brought us so many years of wondering viewing.   This is a show my grandmother watched faithfully for her many amazing years on earth.  This is a show I watch even now 15 years after her death and still feel close to her.  I for one am not ready to give up on GH, please don't be either.  Sometimes when it seems like all hope is lost, something wonderful happens and fate changes course.  Let's help ABC's executives change their mind about ending all of daytime series by flooding them with positive feedback about GH.

Thank you,  Sarah for bringing me back for where I was headed. 

Sometimes The Truth Hurts

Today on GH there seemed to be some wise folks around serving out the cold hard truth.  Sam, Ethan, Olivia, Johnny and Epiphany were all on the serving end of this cold hard truth today.  However, sadly most the recipients of the truth didn't really listen.  But never the less, the truth was good to hear at least for us fans.
I don't know about you but I wanted to grab a pair of pom poms and start cheering in the background by some of those remarks handed out today. 

Johnny had probably one of the bigger shocks of his life today.  He walks in to find the girl he tried to save from herself awake and walking around in her underwear.  Lisa intrigued Johnny but the truth is he cares and has always cared for her.  He knows Lisa is crazy and always cooking up a plan but all the same he cares for her.  But together they served up the truth to each other.  Johnny to Lisa: "Yeah, fine I want to save you.  So freaking what."
Lisa to Johnny: "Why? Because you can't save yourself." We all thought that Lisa was going to fall into Johnny's arms and forget her new even crazier then ever disposition.  WRONG! Lisa shoving the syringe into Johnny's neck telling him she didn't want to be saved was the real truth.  Poor Johnny though! He was the only guy in all of PC that actually wanted to help Lisa.  Hopefully she didn't inject him with anything lethal! 

Ethan served up some amazingly brilliant and extremely honest truths to Elizabeth. Elizabeth did everything she could to speak ill of the late Mrs. Lucky Spencer today.  She was down right vile, rude, and all together acting like a selfish Veruca Salt demanding a golden egg Easter. I honestly thought for a few seconds there she was going to start stamping her feet on the floor and holding her breath until she turned blue.  I thought to myself, wow Elizabeth hasn't changed or learned ANYTHING from the last 5 years of her life.  She has turned into such a mean spirited person she can't even respect the fact Lucky is grieving for his late wife.  She has sunk to yet another level for me.  I used to want to see an LL2 reunion but the way she acted today just shows she does not deserve Lucky.  Elizabeth is so bitter and evil now she is so far from that girl that Lucky saved so many years ago.  It is sad to watch.  I am sad because she has really become so self involved, I don't know how they can get an LL2 reunion to work now.  Ethan handed out the best truth to Liz today, "Lucky loves you like he loves those little pills.  It is not real or healthy!"
Elizabeth said the truth we all know, "So now I am a bitch and a whore?!".  She said it so we didn't have to but sometimes the truth hurts. I don't know about you but I am really liking Ethan these days.  Finally he is getting away from storylines that aren't really going anywhere and they are developing his character.  He is my favorite Spencer these days. 

Olivia was a real friend today to Spinelli.  Olivia has always had a way with words and quite often her served up truth can be quite funny.  Today I think Spinelli needed to hear what Olivia had to say.  I would be the first in line for a Spixie reunion if Kirsten Storms was portraying Maxie.  Let's face it, without Kirsten no matter how hard Jen tries she is no Maxie.  I really hope Kirsten recovers from her medical condition very soon and returns to GH because Maxie is just not Maxie without her.  It makes the scenes with Maxie and anyone painful to watch. Kirsten has put the breath of life into  Maxie's character and there is no replacement for her.  And that is the cold hard truth.

Epiphany  did have one funny line thought to TempMaxie though.
Epiphany to TempMaxie: "Honey there is no help for you!"

I like Carly, ordinarily. But recently I must say, she is nothing winning any contests of mine.  My guess is the new head writer at GH doesn't much care for the Carly character and quite possibly the actress that portrays the role.  The present writing is trying like hell to show us Carly is really a very self-centered spoiled brat that needs a serious reality check.  I am not a fan of the Carly and Jason friendship because Jason is blind to Carly's conniving and manipulative ways.  I think GW is trying to show everyone that friendship is beyond dysfunctional.  I will admit I was less then thrilled Carly decided to show up on the JaSam honeymoon.  Honestly, I had to take a few minutes after watching today's episode to find a positive way to write about today's situation.  Both Shawn and Jason doubt Carly received that note from Franco.  Carly's credibility is questionable in their eyes which I hope means Jason is going to pull Carly aside at some point in the very near future and ask her what the hell she is thinking.  He needs to do that anyway because she is putting her child at risk by taking her to where she thinks Franco may be.  What kind of mother is she?  Sam was the only one to point this out and hopefully Jason will call Carly on it soon.  Sam was none too thrilled about today's situation.  I, for one, am so glad she didn't just quietly sleek off to the background and let Carly railroad their entire honeymoon.  Sam served up some amazing truths today to Carly.  I loved how she said things:
Sam to Carly: "haha I am sorry I think everyone needs a little reality check here. ON. OUR. HONEYMOON. HERE.! Do you really think Jason would find time to send YOU a present?"
Sam to Carly: "Hey, why don't you go back to Port Charles."
Sam to Carly: "Yet you find yourself in the middle of my honeymoon."

Sam to Carly: "Find your own man, Carly!!!"
Sam to Carly:  "You can stop the grieving widow act anyway, Carly.  It's not like you are going to be alone for more then 5 minutes, anyway."
Sam to Carly: "Look this is my deal if you would stop coming to Jason with every one of your little freaking problems."
Sam to Carly: "Wow I think that  it is so desperate and pathetic the way you try to demand Jason's attention.  Not to mention a real turn off for guys, Carly."

Sam told it like it was today and I was so happy to see that.  It almost made the rest of it tolerable. The truth is, I was disappointed in Jason today. I wanted him pull Sam aside and talk to her about things.   I wanted him to tell Carly to stay at the bungalow and take SAM with him to go check the grounds NOT SHAWN.  But the minute Shawn and Carly showed up he ran off with Shawn.  Is this the starting of another bromance?  Instead of the Jason and Sonny bromance is it now the JaShawn bromance? I also wanted Jason to agree with Sam and request they stay somewhere else for the night then INSTEAD with THEM!  I wanted to grab Jason and shake him - WHAT PART ABOUT ON YOUR HONEYMOON DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND!!!  I think Jason feels sorry for Carly because clearly she is acting so pathetic he is worried she is maybe back on her way to another breakdown.  I actually love that Jason and Shawn have a shred of doubt Carly's story for today.  That is the positive lining to this whole mess!

Until tomorrow.  This week will not disappoint because  with Lisa and Franco you can't help but have some fun watching!  Most importantly KEEP WATCHING!  Write, call, FB, tweet.  Let them know, SOAP FANS MATTER AND WE AREN'T GOING ANYWHERE!

Bliss

We know the storm of crazy obsessed stalkers is coming but today we got to see the blissful happiness of two super couples on GH.  While these two couples will be targeted by crazy loons soon, today we got to see why they are super couples. Today was a reminder to all of us that these two couples are so strong that even with the most insane obsessed crazy psychos are after then, they will weather these storms. So even though there will be angst and drama and we will all probably shed a few tears during these storms, take a deep breath, sit back, watch and KEEP THE FAITH IN OUR SUPER COUPLES.

Another couple deserves to be mentioned today.  While Luke and Tracy don't have crazy psycho Lisa after them, they do have crazy Anthony chasing after Tracy.  These two may not qualify to some as a super couple because they have not weathered storms like some other couples.  Keep in mind these two have weathered their own share of storms all together.  However, they tend to weather their storms with a bit more humor then most characters on the show.  The scenes today between Luke, Tracy and Anthony were so priceless. Those three actors have so much talent that watching them together was just classic beauty unfolding on our screens.  I am excited about this developing story but I fear this might be the end of Luke and Tracy for at least a while given the fact Luke did serve Tracy with divorce papers today.  But then I remember, they too may weather their very own storm of crazy.  Maybe this is just another bump in the road in their journey to happiness and survival.

Robin and Patrick were blissfully happy today.  They reminded us why they are a super couple.  It is not because they are both excellent doctors who run around GH taking their turns to talk to Matt about his latest Juvenal moment.  They are crazy in love.  They have survived so incredible storms, overcome more then most and finally are happy again.  Patrick kidnapping Robin to give her all of her birthday presents today was so priceless and cute.  I love that Patrick bought 3 different trips for them to be together. They are strong and ready for any storm.  Keep the faith no matter how crazy Lisa will get and come at them, they will be stronger.  I for one can't wait to watch!

Jason and Sam are just loving every blissful moment of their honeymoon.  We have been able to watch them be so happy on their honeymoon.  This time they have been in their own bliss (and we have been in bliss watching them) is another reminder of how strong their love is and will remain through it all. Today they were so much in love and so amazing to watch.  I have to often remind myself this is TV because they are so realistic and amazing.  When they talked about Sam being "Mrs. Samantha Morgan" I got so excited because they are so happy.   Today I could not help but notice that maybe Jason saving some from drowning was some foreshadowing for the story to come.  Sam will be drowning in the pain of the experience of what ever Franco will do to her and Jason will be drowning in guilt from not preventing it.  But while this is clearly a preview of the story yet to come, pay close attention to today's show.  Because after Jason saved Sam in the water, they were blissfully happy again.  Theses times together will help them make it through any hell Franco unleashes on them.  We know the story yet to come maybe hard to watch at times, we will see our incredibly happy couple go through some really hard times and angst remember these times right now when they are so happy.  They will carry us through too.  KEEP THE FAITH!!!!!!!!!

Keep watching! These stories yet to unfold will make for some very good TV and drama.  This has been what we have been asking for.  These stories will hopefully show everyone daytime TV is alive and well.  We don't need some stupid cooking show to entertain us during the day, WE NEED GH!! KEEP GH ON THE AIR! ABC - SOAP VIEWERS MATTER AND WE ARE HERE TO STAY!  Call, tweet, FB, write!  KEEP GH ALIVE!

Obsessions

Most of us have seen the promo for this week.  If you haven't check it out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qY3DZK1YaSE&feature=channel_video_title  .  What is worse then having one crazy villain target one of Port Charles happy couples, try two.  Both villains are beyond twisted but both in very different ways.  One common denominator between the two of them is obsession. Lisa's obsession is Patrick and her whole "hell hath no fury" rampage.  Then we have Franco who is kind of creepy, kind of weird and all together way too obsessed with Jason Morgan. However, there are more then just these two villains focused on obsessions this week though. Obsession is lingering in the air all around in Port Charles.

Matt and Patrick seem obsessed on their sibling rivalry so much so they are tossing patients up for the taking like children pass toys back and forth.  While these two are wonderful doctors they sure are lacking in the whole compassion side of things lately when it actually comes to patient care.  All I have to say is if I was admitted to GH I would think twice about having one of these two for my doctors.  I think they might want to take their obsession with trying to out do one another a little more seriously and start putting some patient care first. Not to mention, it seems like the two actors never have to learn new lines since this scene seems to replay itself  over and over again, I even know their lines.  No need for either Jason Thompson or Jason Cook to even have to study their lines before they show up to work at this rate.  We understand they have a feud - it's boring lets all move on!

Speaking of wishing things would move on is Michael and Sonny.  Michael wants to prove himself, Sonny wants Michael to stay out of trouble.  Michael insists on putting himself in situations that could land him back in prison.  Michael always trying to be insanely stubborn and idiotic about wanting to be part of the business.  Around and around we go until we get sick. I really hope these two stop doing this dance someday because it has been going on for so long it makes me tired to think about it. However, today Sonny and Michael at least got lucky when Kate arrived.  I have had my doubts about Kate's new return but she did come through today and made those scenes enjoyable and something different then the same old same old.

Another member of Port Charles focused on obsession is Carly.  But Carly's obsession is far more selfish in nature then others.  Carly is obsessed with keeping her hold over Jason.  Jason has moved on with his life.  Carly is still in his life because she is like a sister to him but I think Carly is taking things beyond too far.  Seriously what is she thinking about?  Did Jason crash ANY of her honeymoons for her 4,000 failed marriages?  It's not cool no matter what on any level.  She is really so self absorbed she has justified in her insane little mind that Jason WANTS her to come to Hawaii to crash his honeymoon.  Now that is obsession.  Who should Jason be more afraid of Carly or Franco?  It's really a toss up on which one is more obsessed these days. 

However, the only thing Jason and Sam seem obsessed with lately is just being together on they honeymoon.  They want to just be together and enjoy every minute they have together completely uninterrupted.  That is the greatest kind of obsession of all.  They have been so incredibly cute during their honeymoon.  Both of them are so in love and just want to stay in the moment of their honeymoon and enjoy every second.  That is the JaSam we love to see.  Jason has been so relaxed it's almost unbelievable at some moments this is really Jason.  It's amazing to watch Sam's love wash over Jason with those looks he gives Sam over the last couple of days.  Today when Jason and Sam danced around the topic of baby it was so sweet to watch it play out.  Of course, given all the practicing they have been doing while being on this honeymoon it would be anyone's guess Sam is already pregnant.  Baby Morgan is on it's way.  We all know danger is lingering around the corner for our super couple with Franco and of course insane Carly headed to Hawaii.  But one thing we can be sure, no matter what Jason and Sam will weather this storm.  They will make it through all of this stronger then ever.  Just watch and see.  There will be rough parts but they are stronger then any storm bearing down on them - they will beat this!

Call the comment line, flood the comment line! Tweet, FB and do all that you can to keep ABC very aware SOAPS STILL HAVE TONS OF VIEWERS AND WE MATTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Keep watching even if you don't love every story.  That is okay - just keep watching! Show GH your support!

A Safe Haven

A Safe Haven by definition is  a place of protection or refuge.  While we go through life this place may change from an actually place to a feel, everyone needs a place they feel completely safe.  Once you find that place, you want to do what you can to keep it safe and protected.  That is how Jason feels with Sam.  Sam in the one person in his life that has always made him feel completely safe.  Jason wanted to build a cabin for Sam that was completely their own and some place where he felt safe.  The fact Jason built this cabin speaks volumes to the many sides of Jason we don't get to see all the time.  But also spoke volumes about the depth of his love for Sam. 

Jason has completely given himself to Sam in every way.  Yesterday we saw a very rare moment in the Jason and Sam love. Not only did we see Jason be incredibly sweet and beyond romantic by taking Sam to the cabin and telling her about it, but then we also witnessed their love making.   I will admit I was actually blushing during their very passionate shirtless love scene.  I felt almost like I was intruding on their intimacy.  We knew the scene was coming soon because both Kelly and Steve mentioned they were filming a shirtless love scene but even then it felt too hot to almost watch without blushing.

Today their time at the cabin continued.  Jason and Sam sat cuddling in front of the fire just enjoying their happiness and love.   Jason confessed to Sam many of the times he would leave their bed and go out for a drive that he would come to this place to think.  This has been Jason's safe place for many years and he never shared it with anyone like he has shared it now with Sam.  They are completely in love. 

Jason: "I realize being here with you, something was missing.  One thing I have always wanted. One thing I have found with you that I have never found with any body else."

Sam: "What is that?"

Jason: "Home."

Queue all of our hearts just swooned and we got weak in the knees. Kelly Monaco and Steve Burton have a way of making their characters and their character's love just absolutely come alive on the screen. 

We have waited 7 years for Jason to call Sam his wife and sweep her off her feet and show her exactly how much he loves her.  We have waited so long for the past few weeks, it is almost unbelievable for many of us we actual got to see them get engaged and then married.  We actually got to see this all play out.  Finally as fans we feel so lucky and just absolutely over joyed.  We have been on complete cloud 9 since July and I had been enjoying this great JaSam buzz personally.   That is why the next scene was a bit of a buzz kill and a little strange and unsettling to me in particular. 

Sam walked over to Jason after they had gotten dressed telling him she was so grateful she hadn't lost him in that accident, Jason hugged her tightly then something happened when he looked in the mirror.  He saw himself but something wasn't off.  It was like he was watching a stranger in the mirror.  So who was it? Was it Jason Q looking back at him?  Was it someone else entirely?  Whoever it was, I didn't like it at all.  Just let our couple be happy!!!!  Our couple has been through everything to get where they are now, I can only keep the faith and stay positive.  We know Jason has lost his memory before and he still feel in love with Sam again.  We know something happens to Sam on the honeymoon that involves Franco.  We can only hope no matter what happens, that our couple will face their upcoming challenges together and come out even stronger when those challenges are defeated!

Keep the faith! Celebrate in JaSam!!!  Call, email, FB, tweet.  Do it all to keep GH on the air.  Keep GH alive and strong.  Also remember to watch Dirty Soap this Sunday night at 10pm ET on E!

Written in the Stars

Sorry I haven't posted recently.  I have been out due to some medical reasons and just haven't been able to.  However, I have been watching GH trying to do what I can to keep ratings up. Please keep watching, even if you aren't crazy about some of the storylines!

I am so glad GW is pulling the show back to where it should  be with infusing GH history in every storyline.   Today we watched Jason and Sam gaze at the stars on their wedding night.  Of course, we all recall the stars have a very special meaning for these two.  It was the stars Sam found comfort in when baby Lila died.  It was a shooting star they say that night while searching for Michael and Sam made a wish to be married to Jason some day.  It was a star necklace Jason gave Sam as a token of love.  It was the stars the would looked up and watched that Halloween night in 2006 when they reconciled.  The stars are so important to our couple, no wonder they would gaze up at them on their wedding night.

I loved the dialog between them today.  Sam calling Jason her husband.  They were so happy, which is so wonderful.  These last few months, I have been in JaSam heaven.  It was sweet Sam brought up Danny.  She hasn't talked about him in so long.  Makes you wonder if that conversation about his mother not wanting him is foreshadowing for something to happen in the future to Sam.  There are a lot of speculations out there about Franco raping Sam on their honeymoon.  I personally don't want this to be true.  I know Kelly Monaco would do amazing in the story but I just hope it is not rape.  The story of rape makes me sick and I just hope GW has another twist and turn up ahead for us that doesn't deal with rape.  But whatever happens, you can't deny Jason is madly in love right now.  Makes you wonder what Jason has as a surprise for Sam as they left on the bike...bubble bath?

I have recently noticed that a site many of us visited over the years (Sami's GH Spoiler site) and many of us have enjoyed chatting with each other, is no longer operational.  I did email Sami to ask if I could help get it back up and running but I never received a response.  So if any of you who used to chat over there want to start chatting here on this cbox - please do so.  I miss talking to everyone about our couple and the show.

Keep watching and don't forget to watch Dirty Soap too!  That show is flat out addictive!!! I hope Kelly and Kirsten get more airtime on the next episode and it is less Farah Faith and JP.  Those two are like John and Kate + 8 minus the 8. .

Simple

The blessed day has arrived! Seven years in the making, the day has finally arrived.  The event we wondered if would ever materialize but it has.  No doubt this day didn't come with a lot of expectations.  Much like any wedding day, but we as fans all wanted something that was worth waiting 7 years for.  Did we get it?

Some will say no.  This doesn't make them less JaSam fans them some others.  It is just they had much different expectations for the event then actually played out.  The event could never have been what we all expected because our couple has never done things as expected.  For those fans out there that are angry or feel cheated, I invite you to watch the wedding over and over again.  Listen to what Sam said on her terrace to Jason.  She wanted to marry Jason and he wanted to marry her.  They wanted something simple and Maxie was never going to keep it simple.  Not to mention this wedding was going to be a disaster - no invitations, no flowers, no rings.  The list goes on.  That is not what they wanted.  They wanted to just tell each other they loved each other and wanted to make that commitment to each other...just the two of them.  They kept saying they need to just keep focus on just the two of them.  So in many sense they got what they wanted - simple .  But I think if you feel cheated you have every right to feel this way.  It is fair that you are heard too.  Just try to remember this, our couple is married! We got what we asked for.

Now instead of focusing on what we didn't get, lets focus what we did get.  We got to see Jason's face when Sam turned around in that wedding dress.  She and only she got to see that look and know this is what they both want.  He was almost moved to tears seeing how incredibly beautiful she looked.  We got to see them kiss 3 times with her in her dress.  We also got a dance (all be it short) with her in her dress.  So we did get a few seconds of the dress.  It was beautiful!!! We got to see them together just the two of them laugh for a few seconds.  Since this wedding planning has started I don't think we have see Sam smile much at all.  She has been trying to please everyone and in the process has been making herself miserable.  But today on the terrace and at the restaurant she actually smiled and so did Jason.  They actually looked happy and not ready to kill Maxie for doing something else to screw this up.  We got watch Sam look deep into Jason's eyes as the minister described the pheonix and the dragon symbolism.  We got to see them exchange rings that meant something to each of them.  We got to see them both say "I do" and both look deep into each other eyes and it just be them in a simple ceremony that they both wanted. We got to see Jason brush Sam's hair out of her eyes, look deep into her eyes and passionately kiss her for the first time as his wife.  We also got to see Jason still kissing Sam even when she started talking about the Rain dance night.  She knew then she wanted to spend the rest of her life with Jason and he knew the same.  They may have taken the long road to get here, but they are here.  Jason and Sam are MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Mr & Mrs. Jason Morgan have arrived everyone!!! Raise a glass and celebrate! 

Just remember the wedding continues tomorrow and I am sure it will be entertaining! Our couple is married! Time to celebrate.  This wasn't ever supposed to be about their wedding ceremony but about the commitment they are making to each other.

Lurking

There seemed to be a lot of people lurking today on GH.  Some where lurking in the shadows trying to see that has changed in town recently.  Others were lurking around hospital hallways listening to private conversations.

Of course the most awaiting lurker was Luke.  Oh I am so glad to see Luke back.  How I miss Luke during the summers.  But honestly this summer I didn't mind seeing him go because they had twisted his character so much to make him this raging alcoholic.  Today Luke seemed to be back to the Luke we all know and love. Luke came into the Star to talk to Skye.  She was quick to realize his game and that he had probably been following her at least a while.  Skye herself is a recovered addict so she knows better then most how Luke might be feeling.  She also knows better then most Luke's tactics on how to avoid an unpleasant situation.  But Luke needs to face the unpleasantness that he caused.  He is the reason the Spencer clan has been scattered to the wind.  He is one of the reasons Lucky is such a mess right now.  It all started with him.  He is the reason Lulu is so whiny and annoying.  The only Spencer kid that weathered this storm even half way decently was Ethan because he is a survivor and didn't really ever depend on Luke for much.  During Luke's entire conversation with Skye, notice he walked behind the bar looked at the bottles of booze but never drank anything.  So perhaps he had made peace with his bender drinking and has come out the other side more sober.  We'll just have to wait and see.

The Zacaharras have been on fire lately.  For a while I was wondering what they were going to do with Johnny.  He and Crazy Lisa were a funny match.  But nothing really happened.  Now, he and his dad are classic entertainment.  I really hope they keep up the good writing for these two.  They have amazing scenes together. The two actors are some of the best in the business and you can really tell that when they get together for a scene.  Absolutely amazing.  Johnny knows his dad is up to something.  The fact Dante came knocking on his door today just proved it.      However, instead of Johnny playing into Dante's game, he served up something new for Dante.  Johnny showed Dante 'Your Father is probably crazier then mine right now' .  So true.  AZ might be a bona fide nut case but right now Sonny is cazier then anyone else in town.  Wait until Johnny finds out Maxie is on of his father's hostages.  Oh he is not going to be happy at all.

Sonny was lurking all over the place lately.  He is so crazy.  I am ready for them to lock him up.  I have had enough of his craziness.  I think it is funny Jason asked Shawn to take over being Sonny's keeper. I am sure this is going to work out just lovely.

The best lurker of all today was Sam lurking outside of Jason's hospital room when he was about to be given a sponge bath.  That was so steamy when she told the nurse she was not only qualified but then told Jason to take his clothes off.  I am ready for Jason to get out of the hospital so he and Sam can start planning their wedding.  Jason officially is off duty and can now focus more on his new life with Sam.  The two of them today were so hot.  Not even Sonny coming in learning of their engagement and trying to rain doom and gloom down on them worked.  They are in love and sure this is the next step they want to talk even with everything crashing down  around them, they are holding fast to their love for each other.  It is beautiful how they are finally shutting the rest of the world out.  We can only imagine what is is Jason had in mind for Sam to help him feel better could be. 

I am loving how steamy Jason and Sam are lately.  I can't wait for more.  Watch everyday even if you aren't sure who will be on.  Yesterday was an amazing show even without JaSam! Keep supporting GH.  Keep GH alive on network television.  Call the comment lines, write, email do it all.

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Wedding Plans

Anyone who has ever planned a wedding knows that weddings have a way of taking on a life of their own.  You picture a small wedding of family and friends and being able to tell that one person you love more then anything you want to spend the rest of your life with.  But what really happens is you have to invite everyone's brother's cousin, you have to deal with every relatives impression of what they envision,   try to please everyone around and between the flowers, cake and all the other details you get swallowed up whole but the planning.  For most of us, our weddings were one of the most stressful times of our lives.  When it comes to actually recalling the actual wedding, we only recall bits and pieces.  If I had to do it again, I would probably elope to some tropical island and have very few guests if any.

So I can kind of see why we have seen medianet pics of Jason and Sam getting married away from all the craziness.  While I really wanted her to get married in her dress and them to elope to Hawaii, I have faith this wedding will be something special.  We were warned by GW, that their wedding would be anything but traditional, so we should not expect any traditional wedding details.  But I have watched and listened, Sam has asked for a proper wedding with her family present.  So I hope no matter what next week has in store for us, Jason and Sam both get what they want. 

Most importantly, I know we have all waited since 2004 for this wedding so no matter what our expectations are extremely high of the event.  No matter what happens, I am sure we will be happy.  But all of us as fans have our own expectations of the event.  Lets try to remember this isn't our wedding, this is theirs.  If they want to get married at a Chinese restaurant both wearing jeans and in their normal black attire, we just need to be happy this is finally happening.

Let's try to keep the faith and wait to see how this all plays out.  I know, I too have some hefty expectations of the event.  But lets try to be positive and keep the faith.  Our couple if FINALLY GETTING MARRIED.  Let's be happy and not try to pick apart how it is done.   We have waited 7 years for this to happen.    

Be Careful What You Wish For

We all know the saying spoken so many times.  "Be careful what you wish for because it might just come true." Sometimes in live, things happen exactly the way they are supposed to happen.  Even though when some things happen sometimes that change the course of history forever,  we wish they would not have happened that way at all. We can't see why this is a good thing at all.  But unfortunately that is life.  Sometimes life alter tragic things happen that knock your whole world off kilter and you never understand why but sometimes they have to happen for something wonderful to happen down the road.  No matter if you have a deep religious faith or not, this is still true. 

Now, I'll be the first to admit I wasn't super excited about these 'dreams' today because I tend to like to stay in the 'reality' of GH not the dream land of it.  I don't know why some of the particular characters got dreams and others did not.  Why did Edward get a dream instead of Monica? Well lets take a look at that one.

In the wise words of Edward Quartermaine, 'Be careful what you wish for.' No one knows better then regret.  Edward's whole life he tried to swindle and manipulate those closest to him to make the model heir to his legacy but even Edward realizes that sometimes you need to be careful what you wish for.  He has had a chance to reflect back on his life in the empty big house.  I think even Edward sees that sometimes things happen for a reason.  Maybe they would have lost Jason in another way if it hadn't been that car accident so many years ago. 

Monica wished today that what is Jason hadn't been in that car with AJ all those years ago.  What would life had been like.  Jason was the perfect son devoted to his mother.  An absolute mother's dream of success or was he?  By the end of the episode we saw that they would have lost Jason anyways but not to a car accident or the mob but to something much more powerful, drugs.  Jason Q the perfect Dr, the perfect son and the perfect Quartermaine was also the perfect cocaine addict.  Clearly the high expectations they had placed on Jason since a small child had a lasting effect on him.  Though he was so perfect in Monica's eye, he had his own vice.  So similar to the reality of what actually happened to AJ.  AJ was the only son after Jason became Jason Morgan.  AJ had so much pressure to be perfect that he turned to alcohol.  We saw today that Jason would have turned to a vice too to cope with all the pressure.  The Quartermaine's expectations and pressures were too much for anyone to bare no matter how perfect they appeared.  I think this dream will actually allow Monica to look deeper and just needs to accept Jason Morgan.  This will also remind her that maybe things happened for a reason and Jason was never going to live up to their unrealistic expectations, accident or not. Nevertheless, it was nice to see Alan back on GH. 

There is no denying that Carly has always been a huge part of Jason Morgan's life.   So it is no surprise that Carly had a dream.  Jason is the one man that Carly has not managed to drive away with all of her insanity.  Her dream was just flat out funny.  It was kind of warped and so vintage Carly.  Kind of amusing to see into her head and how even more self centered she is in her head as well as 'reality'.  It was a riot.  I thought it was great.  Carly can wish all she wants but Jason clearly knows in reality he wants Sam. Of course, I never want to see Carly and Jason back together.  But I still thought it was funny but even Carly's dream you saw this would not ever work in reality.

Okay why did Liz ( aka Slutty Sneak) got a dream and other women of Jason's past did not?  I mean what about Robin?  She was he first love as Jason Morgan.  She taught him everything about love.  They were as close as two people can be in the day.  Now I get Robin has moved on with her life and is married now.  So therefore, she doesn't dream of other men.  BUT Liz is all hot for Lucky and I thought there was an LL2 reunion coming.  SO what was up with her dreaming of Jason?  Isn't Lucky supposed to be her true love?  I didn't feel this did the LL2 fanbase any favors by having Liz dreaming of another man.  What was interesting about her dream was Jason was kind of sleazy with her and she even tried to trap him with a baby in her dream.  Maybe she has always known the only way she could attempt to hold on to Jason was to trap him with a kid.  Be careful what you wish for Liz, because even in your dreams you know Jason (no matter if it was Jason M or Jason Q) really isn't that into you and never wanted to spend his life with you.  I still felt this dream did a great disservice to the LL2 reunion and kind of ticked me off because I want to see an LL2 reunion.  Not to mention, where are her kids? Does she spend ANYTIME with them at all lately? 

Now, of course for the reason we watch.  Today I was in tears over the Jason and Sam scenes.  Together Jason and Sam decided he would get the surgery.  I loved how he explained to Sam they are one unit now so he wanted her to be part of this decision.  He wanted her to be able to say how she felt about this whole thing.  Sam made it crystal clear that losing Jason will never be okay.  She will never be okay with that and doesn't want that to happen. Jason wants a life with Sam more then anything so much so he is willing to do something he has never wanted to do in the past, fight for himself.  He wants to have this surgery because he knows this is the best chance he has of getting the life he has always dreamed of with Sam. I love that Jason also brought up wanting to have a child with Sam and wanted to try for a baby.  The topic of baby hasn't been really discussed much since Sam recovered from the surgery and had the negative pregnancy test.  But Jason wanted Sam to know he wants to have a child with her.  Jason knows he will never find anyone that accepts him like Sam does and he wants a chance to live that life he is planning with her.  Therefore, he is willing to undergo brain surgery to help him get that chance at that life.  Now that speaks volumes about how much Jason wants this future with Sam.  Jason hates doctors, hospitals and most of all surgery but he'll do it all without hesitation if it means he can spend his life with Sam.  

Jason reminded Sam how much he loved her and before he went into surgery even in their silence their glances of love spoke volumes.  Just amazing scenes today between Jason and Sam in his hospital room today.  I got just gitty with excitement when Sam mentioned the date of the wedding today as Sept. 23rd.   I am excited they have set the date.  That must have been the date the lug nut fell on that Sam circled on the calendar. 

Poor Sam.  She has been so strong during all of this but she is so terrified.  She is so afraid if they don't have the surgery Jason will die without warning.  She remembers this fear when they thought Jason was going to die before.  Sam was the one that saved Jason then by convincing him their love was worth fighting for.  This time Jason already knows that their love is worth fighting for.  Sam was by Jason's side until the surgery and even during the surgery she went to his hospital room to lay in his bed.  Sam let herself dream about how life would be married to Jason.  She saw them happily married in Hawaii in their little cottage on the beach.  They were so cute and in love. I loved seeing them sporting their wedding rings.   He teased her about her treasure hunting and she teased him about becoming a beach bum.  They were so happy and in love.  But even by the end of the episode danger came to their perfect little heaven. Danger if the form of a gun man at the door.  Sam's fears are not at bay.  She knows she could lose Jason.  Even in her dreams, her fears can't hide.  Sam has always wished they could just go away together and never be bothered by anyone else, but the truth of that is danger will always be around the corner in some form be it a gun man, a car wreck, a man made virus or even the outcome of a risky surgery.  But what remains true in all of those is their love will always carry them through. 

This has been a rough week.  We hardly saw our super couple.  I was beginning to wonder what they looked like again.  But alas today's episode did not disappoint.  I am glad most of it was about Jason and Sam together and their love.  I hope we don't have to stomach much more of the other ladies fantasies about Jason on Monday.  Hopefully we'll get to see more of Sam and Jason though.  I read Jason doesn't wake up until like the week of 9/6.  So next week will be a lot of other people on I am sure and just Sam by his bed side. Keep the faith. I know, I get annoyed too with all these other storylines on everyday but not JaSam.  But September is  going to be a good month for us JaSam fans.  Keep the faith, the 23rd is only around the corner.

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Terrified

I haven't been able to write much lately.  Things have been a bit crazy.  But I have been able to catch up on all the shows today.  It has really been one heck of a long day in Port Charles.  I am adjusting to GW's new style.  For the most part I like it, but that was one incredibly long day.  Hopefully the rest of the days move a little faster because otherwise I have a feeling the cast will still be in tank tops and flip flops while we are shoveling snow, drinking eggnog and hanging up Christmas lights.

Over the last few days, I have just wanted to hug Sam.  Kelly Monaco has done an amazing job over the past few days with her performances.  It really puzzles me why she doesn't have an emmy yet.  Maybe after this, they will sit up and pay attention to the fact Kelly is outstanding and needs to be recognized for it. 

Sam is completely terrified of what is going on.  She wanted to be the one to make the medical decisions for Jason but was overruled by Monica.  She feels so powerless in this whole thing.  She is angry that Jason was even out that night in the storm instead of staying home with her planning their wedding.  She truly does care about Josslyn but knew Jax would never intentionally harm his daughter.  Carly should have called the police instead of running straight to Jason.  Sam is still incredibly angry with Carly but she also knows that Jason is just as much at fault here.  Jason does not ever do something he doesn't want to do.  Carly pushed his buttons but he did make the choice to go out that night.  Carly is getting the brunt of Sam's angry but lets face it, it is well deserved.  Carly and Jason do have a bizarre relationship which is mostly full of Carly taking and Jason giving.  Their friendship isn't the healthiest and I think Jason is beginning to see this.  He loves Carly as a sister, but she has really taken advantage of him so many times and this time it almost cost him his life.  Sam is not about to let there be another time in the future.  She and Jason just decided to spend their lives together, finally commit to a future together and before they can even start planning Carly ripped it out from under Sam with busting down their door with her latest drama.

I have especially loved how Sam is putting down her foot lately.  I think it is about time she tells Max he needs to stop running to Jason to clean up Sonny's messes all the time.  Sonny is an adult.   Granted he is a crazy adult, but never the less he is an adult.  Sonny needs to spend some serious time at Shady Brook.  I hope that happens sooner rather then later.  The best part about Sam putting down her foot is she is reminding Jason he needs to take care of himself.  On Monday Sam told Jason under no uncertain terms if he left that hospital, he would lose her and she was extremely serious.   The second she said that, Jason instantly laid back down in his bed.  He could tell she was terrified and he needed to take care of himself.  He can understand a little bit about the fear Sam is feeling because when he saw Sam on the gurney after the car explosion he was completely terrified.  He is terrified every time Sam gets a hang nail so he can understand a little of how scared Sam is feeling.  This time he didn't get a hang nail, he was in a serious car accident.  Sam is as strong and as tough as they come.  But he can look in Sam's eyes and see that she is absolutely terrified.  When Jason collapsed that just pushed Sam to an even more terrified state. 

Today we saw Sam's fear work in a slightly different way.  Sam has had to spend the entire night waiting to hear what is going on with Jason.  Now, she was forced to deal with the completely unprofessional Drake brothers.  Sam is scared and their little playground fight didn't do her any favors in helping relieve these fears.  Patrick and Sam are friends, I think Patrick would be the best one to talk to Sam.  He was trying to help Sam with her questions before Matt came in.  Matt did have some valid points but they really should not have done that in front of Sam.    After that Sam got to deal with Carly.  Carly did good today though.  Sam is absolutely terrified and she took it out on Carly (again it was well deserved).  Carly tried to get Sam to go for a walk knowing she is absolutely terrified.  For once, I was glad Carly listened to Sam when she asked her to leave.  At least Carly was trying to respect what Sam was asking for once.  Sam really does need someone to talk to though.  She is trying to keep herself busy by working from his hospital room.  Nothing can distract Sam of the fear she is feeling.  The last scene when Sam goes into his hospital room with a stack of travel books of all the places she probably has hoped the two of them would travel some day.  Sam is terrified of thinking about what the tests might reveal.  She has been convincing herself he will get thru this but even she is so terrified he won't for the first time fear is gobbling her up whole too.   Sam doesn't want anyone to see how scared she really is but in that last scene when she curled up in his hospital bed she could not hide it any longer. 

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Simple and Strong

Today's show was a perfect balance of entertaining and dramatic.  The underlying theme was about being strong and enduring.

Today's show started and I blurted out, "Oh look it's Lucky!" We forgot all about him running around town strung out. It's been almost a month for him wandering around, or at least it seems.  It has been one long day in PC hasn't it.  Luckily, Lucky didn't torch the chapel he just simple lit a candle and drifted off.  I am so glad the Spencers rein of arson took the night off for a change.  By the end,  Elizabeth finally found him so there is hope.  But one question, how did she get there? Her car was in an accident and it didn't look very drivable the last we saw it.  Is she now into hot wiring?

An entertaining part of today's show was of course the most comical lawyers in town. Alexis and Diane together is always classic comedy but add Coleman into the twist and those 3 might need to go on the road with their routine.  I love how Alexis told Diane about Jason and Sam.  Diane is so happy for them and that makes me like her more.  There are no two funnier ladies on GH then Diane and Alexis.  The whole discussion on Alexis' lack of a male suitor was priceless. I could not stop laughing during these scenes.  I loved the balance with their scenes today. 


The dramatic and tender mix for today took place mostly at GH.  There were so many tender moments today at Jason's bedside today.  Jason's love ones are there for support even if they can't stand each other they realize they need to be there for Jason...well most of them do at least.

Carly would be one of those. I think while Carly won't admit it, she is realizing that she might be more at fault for the events of the evening then she claimed she was at first.  Sam to Carly: "It's not all about you right now Carly. "  I think that  started to resonate with Carly when she sat in Jason's hospitial room.  Carly admitted to Jason this accident was her fault.  She also admitted to Jason Sam is right about the fact she relies on Jason too much which is absolute truth. 
Carly to Jason: "I know you love Sam, Jason.  and I am happy you are going to marry her. Well I am happy you are happy."
I am glad we got to see some of this side of Carly that she actually felt remorse for everything that went on recently.  I was starting to wonder what was wrong with Carly if she had completely become unhinged and had become a total bitch.  I am glad there is really some humanness  deep down.     Of course then her bitch switch got flipped again and she was back at Sam and fighting dirty with every relative of Jason's.  But maybe now she is leaving GH for tomorrow's show things might get better for the Q's and Sam. 

Jason and Sam's love was best described by Sam today as, simple and strong.  There is no better way to describe their love for one another.  When Sam was in Jason's hospital room, she moved me to tears.  Sam is terrified to death but she is staying strong for Jason.  It was cute that she joked about if this was his way of getting out of planning the wedding, it was not going to work.  Sam has never needed a ring to ever tell her what she knows and what she feels, that Jason is her soul mate.  They both know it.  I can't help but to think while he is lying there all he is thinking about is waking up to be with her and get married like they had planned.  Their symbol of their love maybe a lug nut but today Sam explained that means so much to her.  To her it means the joining two parts together forever and their bond will not be broken by anyone or anything, not even Carly or a car accident will stand in their love's way. 

While Sam didn't knock Carly into the next zip code today, I am glad she was calm and logical when she talked to Carly.  Jason would be the same way with Carly.  He would point out the her that Carly needs to step back and not aggrivate the situation.  Sam respects Carly but today Carly doesn't deserve too much respect. 


Edward came rushing to GH.  It was sweet how he ordered around the staff.  I am so glad the Q's are back on screen.  Monica rushing to Edward to calm him down was so cute too.  I love how Edward and Monica band together in time of crisis.  These two will go toe to toe over most things, but right now they are each others rock. Emily would be proud of those two today.  While Edward sat by Jason's bedside, I think Sam gave him the best news he'd heard in ages.
Sam to Edward: "He'll come back, to all of us because he has to.  He has finally promised to make an honest woman out of me."
This news made Edward smile.  I love how he treats Sam.  He is completely supportive of their relationship.  He always has been for the most part.  True he wasn't real thrilled with her when Jason and Sam were running around town saying Jason was the father of her baby.  But Edward was quick to come around to Sam.  He has always seen how much Jason loves Sam.  When Sam was in the explosion Edward was beside himself because he knew if anything ever happened to Sam, Jason would be lost  forever.

The news of Jason's condition seem very grim.  Patrick did not give much hope as to what the mass is at the base of his spine.  Monica being a doctor knows how to cut through Patrick's medical BS and was quick to jump on the surgery bandwagon.  While she had decided in her mind that Jason needs this surgery and right away, I am glad someone challenged her on this.  Monica is not Jason's medical decision maker anymore.  I am glad Sam blurted out: "I'M HIS FIANCE!!!!"
I think it was good for Monica to know the news.  She would have probably preferred to find out another way but the news is out now.  I loved Edwards reaction to it.
Edward to Monica: "Oh yes, their engaged. I just found out it myself.  It is wonderful, isn't it?."
I love Edward!

Tomorrow should be interesting to see how this plays out.  Couple of things though about the medical decision maker- Matt should know Sam is Jason's finance.  He knows Maxie was busy planning their engagement and then hunting down her ring.  Also I am sure Maxie has told Robin and Patrick by now that they are engaged. Maxie isn't known to keep her mouth shut.

I read all these spoilers for a few weeks now about things upcoming and so far they have not be accurate.  I was discouraged and a little frustrated by some of them.  But today's show was awesome.  I wasn't sure if Jason or Sam would be on.  I was so delighted to see them.  I think I am going to take a few weeks off on spoilers.  They all seem to be a little off.  Join me :)

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