Broken

I am almost at a loss for words today about Jason and Sam's scenes today.  I have had some times to reflect back on those scenes and try to absorb all of their meaning.  While Jason and Sam's scenes today were not the longest when it comes to air time vs the other characters on today, they did by far have the most impact.  It was tough to watch those scenes but at the same time those heart breaking scenes did make for good drama for GH.  GH has been lacking in some good old fashion drama and honestly recently the story lines have been dragging but today was one of the reasons we watch.  There was drama but there was also love. Another thing you can not dispute about today's episode of GH, Kelly Monaco and Steve Burton absolutely had Emmy worthy performances.  After watching today's show I think everyone will agree, Kelly's portrayal was the most moving thing they have watched in a very long time.  She is an incredible actress who needs to be recognized for her talent. 

It was gut wrenching watching Jason begin to explain to Sam what had happened to her.  "What did Franco do to me?"  Sam asked Jason with her hands shaking and absolute horror in her eyes.  She tried to cling to the hope that maybe this was just all a trick.  Jason tried to be as patient as he could be he was in so much pain having to tell Sam what happened to her.  Sam was suffering from a bit of denial today but what woman would not if this is what they were being told.  "Maybe it didn't really happen." Sam said with the saddest expression on her face.  She clung to the hope that maybe something wasn't real that maybe just maybe this wasn't their new reality.  No woman ever wants to have to live through what Sam has just had to realize.  She was raped  (or at least that is what we think has happened to her) by a psychotic serial killer on her honeymoon.   When her guard was down and she has been the most happy in her life, Franco came in and destroyed that.  She had to hear that Franco has been watching them this whole time.  Franco has been there for the last month of their entire honeymoon watching every time they made love, every time they laughed and were just so happy to be able to shut out the whole world, he was watching.  They were never truly alone.  That in its self is reason enough to feel violated to the point to break down in the shower.  

Jason is completely destroyed by this. Sam is taking it better then Jason but that doesn't come as a shock.  He has done everything he could to protect her and vowed he would always protect her but now he knows he failed.  He didn't protect her from Franco or from harm.  It came when they least suspected it, when they were so happy.  Their paradise has just become a nightmare.  Jason felt completely powerless today.  It was flashbacks of how he felt when her baby died.  He could not fix things then and he can't fix them now.  He doesn't know what to do.  He begged Sam to go to the hospital because he felt so powerless. "They can take better care of you then I can."  But Sam didn't want to go to the hospital to be touched by strangers, she just wanted Jason to help her to the shower and help her.  It is normal or natural for most rape victims to not want to go the hospital or to call the police right away, they just want to scrub themselves clean.  They want to try to get the feeling off  their skin.  It was natural for Sam to want to do this.  While this scene was hard to watch, what was  so touching is she wanted Jason to help her to the shower and to just be there.  Jason asked if there was anything he could do for her, Sam looked up at him and said, "Just knowing you are here. Look everything is going to be okay." Sam wanted to reassure Jason which is so true to Sam's character.  She never wants Jason to ever blame himself for anything that has happened to her because someone has targeted her to get to him.  She also wanted him to know she isn't afraid of him.  She didn't cower from his touch, she didn't cringe or pull away even though she just learned she was raped.  She wanted Jason there because she loves him more then anything and he is the only thing she needs.  She tried to help him see that even now, she doesn't hold him accountable for Franco or his actions.  She wanted him to know this is not his fault, though Jason feels this is all his fault. 

The most painful scene to follow was the shower scene.  I don't know if there was a dry eye out there among fans as we watched.  Jason walking Sam to the shower and her trying to be extremely brave but asking for a minute alone.  That is when the real reality washed over Sam.  Sam began to scrub her skin so hard to try to get that feeling off her, trying to feel clean.  She began to breakdown and it was absolutely heart breaking to watch Sam let down her brave wall she had put up for Jason and just breakdown completely.  That is when it became very real to the both of them.  Jason sat outside in the bedroom on the floor just horrified of what Franco had  done to Sam.  His worst fears have finally happened.  Franco was very successful at not only getting to Jason but hurting him more then he could have ever done if he had just targeted Jason alone.  Franco went after the one person Jason cares more about then anyone.  Jason listened as Sam began to break down in the shower.  He sat there for what seemed like forever but it was only seconds listening to her cry. I think the reason he waited the seconds he did was because she had asked him to give her a few minutes alone.  He didn't want to do anything that would make her feel even more violated. But finally he could not stay away any longer.  He had to go help her.  He could not bare to listen to her breakdown without being there.  He wanted her to know she isn't alone and doesn't always have be brave to spare his feelings.  Sam didn't push him away, instead she just fell into his arms.  She fell into the one place she felt safe, with Jason. 

Jason and Sam sat out under the stars.  The last place they will be tonight will be in the bed where the horrible act was committed so it seemed natural to me they would go outside to look at the stars.  The stars have always been such an important symbol for this couple.  When Sam's baby died the stars were the only things that made her feel safe and feel closer to her daughter.  For Sam the stars have always guided her through life, so it was natural Jason just wanted Sam to feel as safe as she could by watching the stars. Jason didn't  feel like he could keep Sam safe but he did his best to try to think of anything that would help her feel a little more at peace but sitting under the stars.  Watching them sitting there it was clear, Jason feels like he has completely failed Sam.  I think Sam felt Jason felt he failed her too.  She tried to help him feel less helpless and assured him, "I feel safe with you."  Again so true to Sam's character, she has been a horrific ordeal but she'll do anything to make sure Jason doesn't feel responsible. 

Everything about today's episode was heart breaking and devastating to watch.  But like I said before, it made for good drama and good TV and I hope ratings increased because of it. I also have a feeling that this most recent dose of reality will actually make our couple stronger in the long run.   I think at first there will be a lot of Jason blaming himself and turning into Hulk Jason in his quest to make Franco pay. While Jason is out trying to get revenge, I think Jason will fail to be there for Sam.  I think it will cause some strain on the relationship at first but I think their love will win out.  I think they will become even closer and stronger after this horrible storm and will come out the other side with a family and happier then ever.  Keep the faith. 


So there are a lot of theories flying out around there.  I don't have too many of mine own i just have some questions so I figure lets be objective and look at this like PI Sam would:

The facts that we know about what happened to Sam:
She drank the beer that was drugged
she went to the bathroom to get a shower and passed out
Franco carried her to the bed, took off his shirt and covered the camera.
Maybe Franco didn't actually commit the physical act of rape, maybe he is just toying with them.  Even if that is the case, they both feel so incredibly violated I am not sure it would make much of a difference because they both already believe it happened.  Of course where this is important is if the writers decide to do a Who's The Daddy (WTD) storyline when Sam finds out she is pregnant.  We all know Sam is pregnant already.  The fact they have been on their honeymoon for over a month would be a big clue that she is already pregnant.  I predict she got pregnant on their wedding night or the night after at the cabin.  Medical fact -  ultra sounds can pinpoint a pregnancy date of conception within a 3 to 4 day period.  I hope if they do decide to do a WTD storyline it is extremely brief and as soon as her first ultra sound they realize she is much farther along then first thought. 

Just a theory but I guess we will just have to tune in to find out!  Call the comment lines GUSH about JaSam.