If you had to do it over again?

Yesterday when Alexis went over to the PH to talk to Jason, I had a feeling there was more to the scene.  Alexis has a valid concern.  But on her first visit all she managed to do was deliver it in the wrong way.  Alexis does tend to do this from time to time.  She means well but her delivery isn't always well received.  As this child's future grandmother she has a right to be concerned.  She knows what it is like to have a child with a mobster. She has one, who, by the way, she might want to pay a little more attention to since apparently NOW on top of everything else she has a substance abuse issue. But Alexis has had to live through Krissy being kidnapped as a child and almost blown up as a teen because of her father.  Alexis knows first hand what that is like. But she also knows the damage it has caused from trying to keep her child from her father.  But Alexis did bring up a very good point! Jason doesn't have to talk to Alexis about this but he DOES need to start talking to Sam about it.   Jason will do anything for Sam, I can see everyone's fear that Jason will go along with a baby idea even if he doesn't want it.  I did like when Alexis left the first time Jason didn't get upset about her visit rather the opposite happened.  He wanted to fuss over Sam. I think Jason wants a child more then anything with Sam but he doesn't want to open himself up for the potential of loss again.  That is completely understandable but I think he needs to TELL Sam this exactly.

One thing I did notice.  Jason's pent house DOES have a lock on the front door and he finally figured out how to use it! Wonders never cease to amaze! I honestly wish Jason and Sam had spent more time together today.  I wish Jason would just lock out the world and sit holding Sam on the couch.  I was hoping he would look deep into her eyes and tell her how much he loved her and just hold her.

Alexis did do right though, she came back to see Sam and clear up a few things.  Sam isn't sure of how she feels but she knows she doesn't want Jason to completely shut down.  She knows she doesn't want his grief to swallow him up whole.  She knows a child will bring so much joy to their life.  She knows despite the pain and the risk of loss, that Jason would overflow with happiness with a child of his own.

I think if Jason had to do it over again, he would not give up his child.  He would realize that there is nothing you can do to keep a child 100% safe.  Also he would realize he is NOT Sonny.  He is a completely different person and would be a completely different parent.  I think if he had to do it all over again, he would be totally different.  I also hope that little talk with Sonny didn't give Jason any ideas about leaving Sam for her 'own' good.  BUT Jason knows what life is like without Sam and he can't live with that.