Terrified

I haven't been able to write much lately.  Things have been a bit crazy.  But I have been able to catch up on all the shows today.  It has really been one heck of a long day in Port Charles.  I am adjusting to GW's new style.  For the most part I like it, but that was one incredibly long day.  Hopefully the rest of the days move a little faster because otherwise I have a feeling the cast will still be in tank tops and flip flops while we are shoveling snow, drinking eggnog and hanging up Christmas lights.

Over the last few days, I have just wanted to hug Sam.  Kelly Monaco has done an amazing job over the past few days with her performances.  It really puzzles me why she doesn't have an emmy yet.  Maybe after this, they will sit up and pay attention to the fact Kelly is outstanding and needs to be recognized for it. 

Sam is completely terrified of what is going on.  She wanted to be the one to make the medical decisions for Jason but was overruled by Monica.  She feels so powerless in this whole thing.  She is angry that Jason was even out that night in the storm instead of staying home with her planning their wedding.  She truly does care about Josslyn but knew Jax would never intentionally harm his daughter.  Carly should have called the police instead of running straight to Jason.  Sam is still incredibly angry with Carly but she also knows that Jason is just as much at fault here.  Jason does not ever do something he doesn't want to do.  Carly pushed his buttons but he did make the choice to go out that night.  Carly is getting the brunt of Sam's angry but lets face it, it is well deserved.  Carly and Jason do have a bizarre relationship which is mostly full of Carly taking and Jason giving.  Their friendship isn't the healthiest and I think Jason is beginning to see this.  He loves Carly as a sister, but she has really taken advantage of him so many times and this time it almost cost him his life.  Sam is not about to let there be another time in the future.  She and Jason just decided to spend their lives together, finally commit to a future together and before they can even start planning Carly ripped it out from under Sam with busting down their door with her latest drama.

I have especially loved how Sam is putting down her foot lately.  I think it is about time she tells Max he needs to stop running to Jason to clean up Sonny's messes all the time.  Sonny is an adult.   Granted he is a crazy adult, but never the less he is an adult.  Sonny needs to spend some serious time at Shady Brook.  I hope that happens sooner rather then later.  The best part about Sam putting down her foot is she is reminding Jason he needs to take care of himself.  On Monday Sam told Jason under no uncertain terms if he left that hospital, he would lose her and she was extremely serious.   The second she said that, Jason instantly laid back down in his bed.  He could tell she was terrified and he needed to take care of himself.  He can understand a little bit about the fear Sam is feeling because when he saw Sam on the gurney after the car explosion he was completely terrified.  He is terrified every time Sam gets a hang nail so he can understand a little of how scared Sam is feeling.  This time he didn't get a hang nail, he was in a serious car accident.  Sam is as strong and as tough as they come.  But he can look in Sam's eyes and see that she is absolutely terrified.  When Jason collapsed that just pushed Sam to an even more terrified state. 

Today we saw Sam's fear work in a slightly different way.  Sam has had to spend the entire night waiting to hear what is going on with Jason.  Now, she was forced to deal with the completely unprofessional Drake brothers.  Sam is scared and their little playground fight didn't do her any favors in helping relieve these fears.  Patrick and Sam are friends, I think Patrick would be the best one to talk to Sam.  He was trying to help Sam with her questions before Matt came in.  Matt did have some valid points but they really should not have done that in front of Sam.    After that Sam got to deal with Carly.  Carly did good today though.  Sam is absolutely terrified and she took it out on Carly (again it was well deserved).  Carly tried to get Sam to go for a walk knowing she is absolutely terrified.  For once, I was glad Carly listened to Sam when she asked her to leave.  At least Carly was trying to respect what Sam was asking for once.  Sam really does need someone to talk to though.  She is trying to keep herself busy by working from his hospital room.  Nothing can distract Sam of the fear she is feeling.  The last scene when Sam goes into his hospital room with a stack of travel books of all the places she probably has hoped the two of them would travel some day.  Sam is terrified of thinking about what the tests might reveal.  She has been convincing herself he will get thru this but even she is so terrified he won't for the first time fear is gobbling her up whole too.   Sam doesn't want anyone to see how scared she really is but in that last scene when she curled up in his hospital bed she could not hide it any longer. 

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