The End is in Sight

I haven't been able to watch many episodes of GH in their entirety since before Sam had her baby on June 5, 2012 (one of the reasons I remember that date so clearly is June 5th happens to be my own birthday). It has been months of torture that has been deemed 'entertainment' that we have been forced to accept as GH recently.  It is now October and I keep just thinking back to where GH was a year ago.  GH was on top of the world and so were the fans.  JaSam had just been married and we finally got our dream come true.  GH was doing great in ratings and most fans were incredibly happy with GH and the writers and everything overall.  Oh, how a year can change things.  A year ago we were all devoted fans to the most amazing couple and soap on TV.  While we are still devoted fans, we have been very much abused for that love this past year. Sadly our time is running out to watch our amazing couple.  We have two weeks left (or a little less) of Steve Burton to be on our TV screens.  Hard to even imagine life after Jason in the world of Port Charles...not that Port Charles has resembled the Port Charles we have always known in the past year.  But it is still hard to even conceived of the concept there will be no hero rushing in to save the day, there will be no team of Jason and Sam to save Port Charles of whatever ails it.  There will be no Jason.

I know I can't change the future and I know the end is in sight for Jason Morgan's character that has been part of a show for over 20 years.  I know that there is no hope for me to wake up tomorrow or even next week and it all have been a bad nightmare and Steve to really be coming back and Jason and Sam to be alive, strong and ready to take on the world together.  This is probably why I find it hard to watch the next two weeks of GH because the end is in sight.  The end is coming and there is nothing that can change this.  Of course, this is the land of soaps so you never know what the future may hold.  Heck, look Duke is alive.  But in all honestly, this end feels more final then others.  I don't want Jason and Sam to end.  I don't want Jason to end.  I also know that with Jason's 'death' many of us (me included) will probably stop watch GH all together.  I also know GH is pretty much on life support these days and with the departure of Steve Burton, GH might just go down like the titanic or even faster. 
But I guess we have to be happy with the last two weeks that we get.  There are 99 zillion 9 trillion and 10 reasons to be upset, feel cheated, feel robbed of our happy ending but I guess we just have to watch and be happy with what we get.  Sadly, we just have to watch the story end.  We owe it to our couple to watch faithfully for the next two weeks.  We owe it to Sam to watch as when Sam is on coping with Jason's loss.  But that is where it ends.  I guess we always knew there would be an end...every beginning has an ending, that is a fact of life. I guess this is our fact of life reminder.

The saying goes beginnings are scary, endings are usually sad.  It is the middle stuff that counts the most.  So instead of just thinking of the end that is coming, lets think about the beginning and middle parts of this great love and remember those when we watch for the next couple of weeks.  Remember the happiness.  Remember their first meetings when Jason tried to pay Sam to leave town.  When Jason was assigned to guard Sam.  Remember when Sam found out she was pregnant and Jason came to her rescue at the women's clinic when she was unsure of what to do. Remember their first wedding that almost happened.  Remember when Jason tracked Sam down to Texas where she lied about losing the baby just be her night in shining armor rushing her to a hospital, holding her hand and falling in love with Sam right in front of our eyes.  Remember Jason and Sam planning on having a family, sharing special moments when she was pregnant all the while their feelings for one another growing stronger and stronger.  Remember Jason making fun of Sam's singing and Sam asking him to go to Hawaii with her and the baby.  Remember Jason being Sam's rock when the baby died and they both grieved for the lost of their child.  Remember when they both realized their feelings were stronger then they could deny. Remember the first kiss and the second. Remember when Sam moved out and Jason to come to her rescue at Jakes with Coleman.  Remember Jason sitting next to Sam and Kristina's christening and supporting her that whole difficult night.  Remember Jason asking Sam to come over for a date and Sam showing up with baby Hope.  Remember them loving that child and wanting a family again.  Remember the proposal full of love and passion.  Remember Jason letting Hope go and losing Sam. Remember Sam being framed and Jason proving she was innocent.  Remember them being on the run. Remember Sam doing anything to get Jason to the hospital when he was shot.  Remember their love growing as Jason grieved over the loss of Michael and Sam being his rock.  Remember as the tracked down Michael and worked together to help get him therapy after AJ died.  Remember them running away with Michael to keep him safe.  Remember them being happy no matter what because they had each other.  Remember the evil twin, the crazy island and remember Jason getting sick.  Remember even through memory loss Jason found his way back to Sam because not even memory loss could destroy their love.  Remember the 2nd proposal when Jason could not remember his past but all he knew was Sam was the greatest thing in his life.  Remember Sam being by Jason's side through the treatment and surgeries. Remember Jason doing anything to protect Sam from Manny and anyone else out to hurt her.  Remember Jason supporting Sam as she learned who her real mother was.  Remember Sam getting shot.  Remember Jason (in a moment of idiotic logic) breaking up with Sam. Remember Sam fighting for their relationship.  Remember the bad times that took place next but also remember the good.  Remember nothing could keep them apart.  Remember Jason setting up the roof top dinner and Sam smiling for the first time in a long time.  Remember Sam getting arrested and escaping from custody. Remember Jason going to save her and them being on the run together.  Remember them beating the charges and reuniting.  Remember Sam finding out she could not get pregnant and her trying to protect Jason from the truth. Remember the Metro Court hostage situation where Jason and Sam worked as a team to save everyone. Remember that even though 2007 happened it didn't ruin everything because even in 2008 Jason thought of Sam all the time.  Remember in 2009 as Jason and Sam grew closer and closer back together, Jason never stopped loving Sam. Remember when Sam showed up in one of her outfits at Jason's pent house and his eyes about popped out of his head.  Remember when they were following Kristina and Michael how worried Jason was about Sam traveling alone.  Remember Jason getting shot and Sam saving him.  Remember how Jason wanted everything back and would not give up until he and Sam were reunited. Remember the awkwardness of starting again but the love the both shared. Remember them working as a team again to track down Claudia's schemes.  Remember them falling more and more in love.  Remember Jason and Sam covering up Claudia's death. Remember their love growing stronger as Franco targeted Jason and kidnapped Sam.  Remember Jason out of his mind with worry for Sam's safety. Remember Jason going to prison and Sam standing by his side the whole time he was in prison. Remember his homecoming celebration Sam gave him.  Remember the happiness and love.  Remember Sam going after the Lopez brothers and the two of them teaming up to take them on at the cabin at the same time sharing amazing moments reminding each other why they love each other so much. Remember Brenda and the Baulkin - neither were a match for taking down our amazing couple.  Remember when it was Sam on the gurney instead of Brenda. Remember Jason's face when he realized it was Sam. Remember how loving and devoted Jason was during Sam's recovery. Remember Jason realizing he wanted more then just to be with Sam he wanted to propose to her.  Remember the proposal that was the most magical rooftop proposal in all of soap history.  Remember the wedding planning and the surgery. Remember the look on Jason's face when he saw Sam in her wedding dress. Remember the wedding in their own style.  Remember their cabin wedding night and remember the happiness.  Remember Jason told Sam she was his home and no one has ever been that to him in the past.  Sam was his everything.  Remember the honeymoon, the Hawaiian shirts, the surfing game, the naps the happiness.  Remember the bad too but also remember Sam's love for Jason helped her overcome the horror Franco unleashed.  Remember the joy they felt when the tests confirmed the baby was theirs.  Remember their happiness and love and no matter what they haven't stopped loving each other.  Remember that and hold on to all these memories as the end approaches.

Endings are, after all, usually sad.  I don't expect this ending to be any different.   I just hope to hold on to all the memories of the last almost 9 years that we have been given.