Yesterday just about every JaSam fan out there watched GH. Many of us have really just briefly been viewing GH but yesterday we watched. We watched because it was all we could do to stay away. As I watched yesterdays show, initially I LOVED it because it showed what we all WANTED it to be like. What we have WAITED 8 FREAKING YEARS to happen. I loved every smile and giggle and every kiss. I loved seeing Spixie reunite because Kristin Storms is back and it just felt right. I loved every second of the episode until.........the end. Until we had to go back to reality, until we were reminded just as Jason was reminded by Sam, this isn't how it happened. This isn't how it turned out. Then we were left with a feeling that the air had been knocked out of our sails.
Yesterday's show is how our JaSam love story SHOULD HAVE BEEN. How we all wanted it to go. How we would have liked it to go since we worked so darn hard saving GH as a show that is what we wanted to see happen. We wanted a baby Emily and a baby Daniel. We wanted those names and the happiness Jason and Sam shared.
After the show ended yesterday I wanted to cry. It was like the pain of this last year just washed up to the top again for me. All the love I felt while watching yesterday's show just made me ache because I know we will never get that perfect love story. Steve Burton is leaving so even if Jason and Sam had decided to give things another try and to admit their love can overcome anything it still means there is an END coming. Steve is leaving and no matter what way their write things, the END for Jason and Sam's perfect love is COMING. We can't do anything about that.
I really wish instead of watching the past few months RC tear Jason and Sam we would have got just a little of that happiness. But instead we got none. We got nothing but broken hearts and broken dreams. I wonder if RC realizes how much we all hate him? I wonder if FV realizes it too? Who knows but yesterday's show just left me feeling broken after it was over.
I felt like it was RC and FV's way of saying 'nannie nannie boo boo, we ruined your favorite couple and show'. It was like they were saying this is what you wanted us to write but this is what we decided to do since we were angry ABC canceled OLTL. It is no secrete those two are bitter about that. None of this crap would have happened is JFP and Wolf were still at the helm. But that is, of course, the point. What if JFP was still at GH? What if SB wasn't leaving? What if Garin Wolfe was still the HW? What if Guza was still there? What if we still had our JaSam? But where will what if's get you? They only give you more sadness about the true reality.
I feel sorry for Kristin Storms she worked so hard to come back after her illness and what she came back to is nothing like the place she left. Though watching Maxie has been one of the only highlights recently, it can't save a sinking ship. That is what GH is now, it is the titanic. Thanks to RC and FV they have managed to sink a great empire. At this point GH is filling with water and soon it will dive deep into the ocean.
I don't know what we can do to make it clear to ABC, FV and RC about how much they have wronged us, but I guess we have to keep trying. After all it isn't over until it is over. While it might feel like we are 'the band playing on as the titanic sank', I guess it can't hurt to try to save GH, oust the new regime and get Steve back. I have written many letters, some positive some negative some full and angry and some trying to find the good in all of this. Maybe it is my way of dealing. If it helps you, write letters too. Keep trying and so will I. After all it is a soap opera so anything is possible.
